29 June 2013

My first post after a long long while.

30 December 2012

There is something about Langkawi Island, situated up north of the Peninsular of Malaysia, that makes me want to come back over and over again. Every trip back here has a significant story to tell. Unfortunately, I do not make a habit to document all my thoughts. However, this trip is something I feel I must share with all of you.

For the last two years, Langkawi has always been the chosen destination for an IPhoneFix get together.Simply because of the fantastic beaches and of course, the memorable new year's eve celebration.

As I reminisced the moment when we landed on 29 Dec 2013, the weather was sunny and windy, just like the last time. Climbing up and down the stairs to Sari Village was something all of us try to forget. It's tormenting and tiring. But the minute we reached the top, the familiar view the villa situated on a hill overlooking the South China Sea and a glimpse of Thailand just made us forget the hardship of climbing. Home sweet home, definitely!

The excitement of being at 'home' didnt end there. In fact, it was the beginning of our memorable moment for Zaini, Halmi and me. Day by day, the excitement just got more and more intense. We explored a beginner's extreme sport - parasailing!

The experience was unbelievable !! I had been dreaming to parasail and bungy jump ever since we went to Bali in 2006. But, I couldn't bring myself to do it. In 2009, I saw some people parasailing in Cenang Beach in Langkawi. My telepathic hubby read me like a book and encouraged me . I almost did but chicken-ed out at the last minute. But as I remembered looking at Halmi when he said, recently "let's do it, Bi. You and me. What'dya say??" . I thought about my Lil G, my 4 year old daughter. But, somehow my instinct said it ll be ok,she will be ok, he will be ok, I will be ok. Inshaa Allah. Thinking back as we speak, I remembered the invitation by dear hubby and made me want to take a chance and just do it. No questions said or asked, and agreed.
As I craft this post, I remembered exactly how it felt.It was the best feeling ever! Hubby and I took the couple parasailing gear and strapped over our bodies. My heart was pumping hard, yet i still want to do it. As we saw our legs slide backwards from the boat, I panicked but i was dying to know what's next.Halmi looked as if he enjoyed it, as we went up and up reaching for the sky. My thoughts about it vanished, when I heard my Lil Girl screamed, " mama & papa going up, up and away! They are flying and look so small!!. I smiled and screamed, "we love you,Aisya!!". Before we knew it, I think we were hundreds of meters up from the sea level.

OMG!!! I couldn't believe I was actually doing this. Finally! I really rised up to the challenge. Really felt proud of myself. As I looked up, the sky is indeed the limits! Or should I say limitless. At the point, I felt I could do anything if I put my heart to it. Letting go of my fears, made me felt like a new person. I'm Supergirl!! Lol! My childhood dream of flying :)

Halmi broke me away from my thoughts and looked at me and said, " it's you, me and this remarkable view!" we smiled to each other and marveled and God's Creation. Alhamdulillah!!

The weather was fantastic. Sunny and windy. Two combination that made our moment awesome. The nearest analogy I would relate to this is looking out the window in a aeroplane, minus the plane and we are flying in an open sky!! The feeling was magnificent. I screamed,laughed and was hypnotised by the beautiful sea, the sunset, the sky and most of all God's wonderful Green Earth!

However, all good things must come to an end. As the boat turn, we were pulled down slowly. As parents we smile with glee as we returned to shore. Our Lil G hugged us. She was rambling that her parents can fly :) the proud feeling expressed by Lil G just made me feel so good inside.

As I am about to end this post, I am thankful to the O'Mighty that we were back in one piece.Smooth sailing in my first parasailing! My first extreme sport.And now I shall keep dreaming to buggy jump. Still cant bring myself to do it yet. Gulp!! Will I? That will be another story to tell.

Location:Langkawi Island,Kedah

I never really gave it much thought if I would ever be immobilized. I thought about it deeply in the last one week, thinking how would my darling daughter and precious hubby go on with their lives without me. I am still thinking how would I go on with my life
This is my story of being thankful to Him for showing me that life is about patience and perseverance.
It was one week flash back when I had a small mishap. I had fallen and slipped down from my grandmother in law's wet toilet. The floor was soo slippery that i didn't managed to get a grip of myself. It happened so fast that I was still in the dazed when it happened.
I'm current recuperating from the fall. Bedridden for an entire weekend, which was agony. I couldn't continue with my training to half marathon. I felt old and lethargic and most of all, I felt useless of myself.
I guess this is how they all thought about themselves. Those patients who are threatened by death must feel even worst of. And at this moment, I could feel the torment and shine away from
family and friends..
Alhamdulillah, my legs
are getting better. I can walk without limping but it does hurt sometimes. But what made me think hard is the qadar and qadar..

This morning, I decided to find and collate my masterpieces. I remembered crafting some poems for the two people who gave a great first impression of the organisation . It was an amazing team of people who worked each other, no matter rain or shine.

The bond was so strong that it did not matter whether the work was part of the key performances indicators or not.We did the work together. As a team.We were like sisters at heart. I wrote this two poems and pasted it on their scrapbooks during their last days in April-May 2011.

This post is dedicated to my lovely ex-colleagues for their warm support and the bond :
             Sheznie Merican & Munira Salim

To be updated soon...

December 27,2011

Dear bosses & fellow colleagues,

I would like to take the opportunity to thank each and everyone of you who have directly and indirectly gave a positive impact to my professional and personal development. I am honoured to be part of the team for the last 2 years, working along side talented people like yourselves , day and night on challenging yet rewarding assignments. It is has been an exciting journey of discovery for me. If not for the great leadership of SPCS, I wouldn't have known what I am really made of. The fun challenging moments had really build my character. Resilience, the power not to give up, the willingness to learn and giving your best shot in whatever we do,brought me to a level where I never thought I could be. Although, I have no idea on my PPA results, I felt like I gave my level best. It's the same feeling, i felt after completing my first half marathon at 2 hours 3 minutes which is my personal best so far :)

Having all of you gathered in this room, all together for the last time before I leave to my new place, makes me sad and blue. I was once loss in transition and envied the other competent planners . But over a short period of months, it changed. I improved and am so grateful to Dali for his kind words. I confided in him thinking ill be a potential m3. N he told me that its never too late. Let this 1.5 mths be the best effort u made in T&E for PTSSB ABP. And that shook me up. For that i thank you. I would also like to thank pn habsah for your guidance , frankness openess & your patience in me. It is from you I learnt the true meaning of speed as a bullet train & quality of gold. U had given me a diverse opportunity n hands on experience in 4 areas in one year -- branding, PTSSB & central planning and portfolio mgmt. Thank you, Nash who kept pushing me to reach pn habsah's speed and quality expectation & entrusted me to assist him on SPCS budget, central planning namely the T&E performance reporting while & VP Scorecard, while Kumuda was away. I thank the heads -chew may, fedora n omar who had been giving nothing but encouraging support . I would also like to thank all of u in this room, planners - Fatin, Ku, Zamani, Rosel, bombarding with q after q; portfolio - Azrul, Kumuda and Seri, chasing over updates on PTSSB MC; branding - Jess,Maz, Aadel, Ben, Elin & OI -Midi, Raihan & Zizi  who i would look for when i need a fresh of breath air other than work. PRF esp zul as well as the budget preparers -cracking our heads on the budget posting.To Ayu, for helping scheduling the big bosses time n arranging for rooms, extending the lights. I personally like her lovely feedback note- senyum selalu walaupun kena marah. Thank you all. You made me a better person, professionally and personally. this is the place i found courage, confidence and the resilience in me, which I never knew I had. And I know as the going gets tougher, the tough SPCS as a team will definitely get going. Keep up the energy, the team spirit n believe u can do it.

Having said that, I do hope this doesnt mean goodbye. Let's keep our networks intact and who knows we might cross path in the near future :)

Btw, does anyone here know who is my secret friend?

Warmest Regards,
Nizie
Business Planner
SPCS,T&E Div