An email from the Application Management for Ireland, UK and Africa in Shell Manchester brought hopes and dreams for me. I applied for an employment in Shell Europe a week before celebrating the new year, 2007.

After 3 restless months, I finally received a reply regarding my application. It explained that the massive amount of recruitment that came in was the main reason they have not called me for an interview yet. They have yet to schedule for a appointmnent slot as yet. it just brought a smile to my hopeful face.

I could not help but to psychoanalyse the situation. Why would there shortlist on 21 Dec 2006 after 3 days receiving my application, unless they really want to know what I could offer to them. I was really on cloud nine when I received 2 emails regarding my application. Maybe, they really want me to be prepared for this interview and ask all kinds of questions which may be out of this world.

My hopes are getting somewhere; I could hear me talking at heart. My hubby was more than supportive when I told him the news. It was a drastic change in the last 2 years, when he was firmed that I was just wasting my time with focusing on Shell. And that email really made my whole year so colourful. I know there is nothing solid yet, but I really feel that something really positive is coming my way. Whatever it is, I feel so blessed that He hears my prayers.

Well, whatever it is, its time to get ready to be happy again. I need the drive to nail this job and help this family to greater heights. For starters, I need to be equipped with shield and army and win this war. Like Papa says, knowledge is never a loss. So, what you waiting for, go do your research and make sure you win with victory, insya Allah.

Good Luck, Nizie! You can do it, girl.

When work pressure begins to control your life, you will begin to realized how you’re starting to miss the moments of living. I am feeling it already.

It’s a hot sunny Monday after, approximately half past four in the most hazardous heat in Kuala Lumpur, it is insanely 40 degrees in temperature, which is one of the hottest time during summer in the land down under. Literally, the global warming has come attacking our lives as well.

I am sitting at this miserable workstation, staring at the screen hoping I would do something else then this endless project management that seems to extend its maturity of time. I am looking outside the window, distracted by a cup of hot mocha in my hand and noticed how bright the sun shining through the transparent clear glass that brings back to my world.

My world seems rather dull at this moment in time. Beauty of this industry has lost all its charms. Everything seems familiar and routine. After awhile one task after the other, is something you can predict the outcome. When I reevaluate what went wrong, I know that my attitude towards work can do wonders. Not that, I have not tried, I have. But every single time, I try and gather the effort just to realize the more I should exit myself.

Every single morning, I dread to wake up from bed and every single night I wish that morning never comes. But when it comes to weekend, I look forward on Friday evening simply because I know the weekend is here to stay. And when Monday come, it goes back to square one. Now, while gathering my thoughts, there must be away to start cherishing the learning moments at work. I need to do something that makes me feel good about myself and stir up the spirit in me, again.

Deep down inside, I know what I am looking for..