All I am asking for
It is 3.10 pm on a Tuesday afternoon. I look out the window and see how gloomy the whether is. There are fewer cars than normal days. Probably it is because of the New Year holidays. I turn around and hear laughter of my colleague of some crapy jokes he made. I look around and see everyone stucking their nose to their reading materials they have on their desks. Trying to look busy when there is nothing much to do. I could tell they just cant wait for 6 pm, which is far than 3 hours to go. Sigh.
Like the rest of my colleagues, my mind drifts away to somewhere in outer space. Thinking and imagining where would my life lead to. Hoping that dreams come true. Finding my inner most passion and contentment of what reflects my personality. Still searching for my empty soul, which waits to be transformed to a beautiful dove with brains.
Sometimes, I feel my soul is in an unmatched body. Not that because I hate my physical appearance. But, because I am disappointed in how I am now. I have given in to temptation with the luxury of food, sleep and laziness. Which is not how it is supposed to be! I craved to be the girl who had everything under control, once again.
I was such a determined, dedicated, hard-working person, who believed that you can make dreams come true. Just by believing in myself. Be it in your health, career, marriage or anything under the sun. What happened to that girl? Gone with the wind.
But wait..! Something hit me this morning. I just realized over the years it is not too late to achieve what you want. I can still be happy. I can still reach for the sky. I can still make things happen the way I want. As a start, I could start putting some effort. Small efforts can create big impact through time.
I still could do things I like without sacrificing my happiness. Try to get things in control. It is like doing pilates. It all starts and ends at powerhouse. It may be hard at first, but practice makes perfect. By practicing we will get better. For that, I have started my exercise regime.
Being discipline in whatever you do is the key to strive what you want most. Nobody said it is easy. By being discipline, I could still be a devoted mother, a loving wife, and career lady as well as being an individual. Even though, I am about to take this responsibility, I know I can do it. All I need is your support. Just be there by my side. That is all I am asking for.
Like the rest of my colleagues, my mind drifts away to somewhere in outer space. Thinking and imagining where would my life lead to. Hoping that dreams come true. Finding my inner most passion and contentment of what reflects my personality. Still searching for my empty soul, which waits to be transformed to a beautiful dove with brains.
Sometimes, I feel my soul is in an unmatched body. Not that because I hate my physical appearance. But, because I am disappointed in how I am now. I have given in to temptation with the luxury of food, sleep and laziness. Which is not how it is supposed to be! I craved to be the girl who had everything under control, once again.
I was such a determined, dedicated, hard-working person, who believed that you can make dreams come true. Just by believing in myself. Be it in your health, career, marriage or anything under the sun. What happened to that girl? Gone with the wind.
But wait..! Something hit me this morning. I just realized over the years it is not too late to achieve what you want. I can still be happy. I can still reach for the sky. I can still make things happen the way I want. As a start, I could start putting some effort. Small efforts can create big impact through time.
I still could do things I like without sacrificing my happiness. Try to get things in control. It is like doing pilates. It all starts and ends at powerhouse. It may be hard at first, but practice makes perfect. By practicing we will get better. For that, I have started my exercise regime.
Being discipline in whatever you do is the key to strive what you want most. Nobody said it is easy. By being discipline, I could still be a devoted mother, a loving wife, and career lady as well as being an individual. Even though, I am about to take this responsibility, I know I can do it. All I need is your support. Just be there by my side. That is all I am asking for.
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